The Waiting

So this thing happened: I had a baby, then I blinked and now he’s having his first birthday. Only,  I didn’t blink. I didn’t close my eyes once, not even to pray. It’s peculiar how the memories and details of this time last year are fresh; they are imprinted in my mind as if it … More The Waiting

Silver Linings

There is no way around it. Life can be damn hard and the only way you can get through it sometimes is to sludge through the blood, guts, and crap all the while keeping your eyes open for the silver linings and trusting that God will use the hard stuff for a greater purpose. I … More Silver Linings

Sovereign

One year ago today I was told that Jonathan did not have a left ventricle in his heart.  After the diagnosis friends, family, and pastors in attempt to ease our grief and justify our unfortunate set of circumstances said “God is Sovereign.” I thought to myself, I have no idea what in the hell you … More Sovereign